today is awful.
today i feel tired and fed up with everything and everyone.

today it has been raining, and rain is lovely when you are inside, with the window open. it is also beautiful if you are in a tent, or have been soaked coming home and have jumped into the shower, and the smell that happens before.
but the rain today was truely dreadful, and none of that happened.
the weather is miserable, and so am i.

the bf has royally pissed me off.

so tonight i am going to be posting on tumblr, stalking on tumblr, and drinking my vodka with tumblr.

tumblr, or gtfo.

and,
it is watery and red and,

i need a shower. i should have had one earlier but idk i didn’t and if i have one now Oliver won’t be able to sit on the toilet seat and protect me because at night the shower is daunting.

we got black mint shower wash and it is really nice and it smells like smothering after eights over your body and. ugh that would’nt be cool but it smells v good ok.

i should go to sleep now. i might try. it is hot in the loft so i have to sleep with a sheet over me instead of my duvet. i think this contributes to me not being able to sleep, because i don’t feel as safe with the sheet over me.
idk something might get me in the night.

i have terrifying nightmares and something in my room lifts the sheet off me. it feels real..and it could well be real. i’m not sure.